What is Wrong With Me

I can’t sleep.

Seriously. Let me say that again so you clearly understand what I  mean.

I can’t sleep.

I have a lot of trouble putting my mind and body down to rest at night. Sometimes, the sun will come up in the morning before I will lie down for the first time. When I do finally rest, I rarely stay down for long, and often don’t rest well. I wake up delirious or confused.

I have had three medication changes, coordinated by my psychiatrist, in the past six weeks, in an attempt to stabilize and reach a regular sleep pattern. It hasn’t happened yet, which is unfortunate. My body is stressed, and my mind is stretched thin. I can’t relate to others, it is difficult to stay on task, and I can’t focus on what I need to get done.